because...

i know your reading my website




BITCH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!


hahhahahha

some things aren't meant to be...

True Love Never fades...

SUMMER LOVIN'

:D

i'm loving everything about summer right now
damn i can't wait for whats in store for this weekend

ugh back to school on the 20th though ;(
oh well

haha

aurevior'

im good

IM GOOD

without you, boy :D






standing my ground
building up my wall, again
gonna climb up till i reach the top
to GREATER things in life !!!

so far

so good :D

lovin' it & i think imma get used to this


hah & you doubted me

PFFTTTTT i can do this, i swear =]


goodnight bloggers
hehe

so i'm back...

after it's been like what..a week since i last blogged?
hahhahhaha anyways

this past few days & weekends have been a total blast!
meeting new people, making friends, chillin' late nights till mornin' time
& being happy for that moment...."JUST CUZ" (sherwin's saying) hahahah

there's been drinking,& singing,lots of picture taking,mountain climbing,around the island tours,adventurous journeys,crying,& cuddling...all that shit happened between april & may :DDD

the BEST i EVER HAD...huh guys?lol
if ya catch what i mean.i love how it was just us 4.mhmmm
makes me smile when i think about it...
anyways, don't wanna brag too much

cuz there's MORE where that came from.hah

k den

catch me if you can...

too lazy for blogging
&
ain't got time for this boooshiiii' HAH
so catch me...if you can [;

you should KNOW where to find me,contact me,see what i'm up to


twittterrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr & myyyyyyyspacceeeeeeeeeeeeee


k den shootz kamehameha
a hou ho.

LMFAO xD

this weekend......

FRIDAY:

- buy babyboy's balloon
- visit Maria in the hospital."CONGRATULATIONS & WELCOME TO THE WORLD BABY AYDEN" :D
- buy whatever else i need!!!
- meet up with everyone to go to *someone's special thingy.haha
- after that "party" go to chez' black & white affair :DDD
- if im TOO wasted.hah which i highly DOUBT, stay over at the Hilton cuz my families staying there friday & saturday night <3

SATURDAY:
- call up my cousin & friends to come over to the hotel & swim in the pool ^_____^
- swim, pool hop, walk around waikiki & ENJOY it there.
- CHILL SOME MORE!!!
- prolly stay overnight again?
- do whatevers after with the homies like usual all nighter outings with them

SUNDAY:
- around the fckn island, gotta bring my maui cousin around.hah
- homies come with?lol LETS GO
- Giovani's shrimp truck (: YUUUMMMM
- Matsumoto's shave ice? :D mhmm
- & whatever else is there to see.hah

3 DAY WEEKEND HERE I FUCKING COME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

----♥----

"heal the past, live the present, dream the future." - i got it from someones page.LOL thankssss i like it =]


BTW, back to school today for me.haha.
& NO, no 4/20 for me.i don't do that shit.haha
whats the point for celebrating when you can smoke everyday if you want...right?
LMFAO ;P anyways mark was at school.aha.can tell he's new he doesn't know where to go.lols.mhmm no hmwrk.uhhhh i can't wait for this weekend ^______^ WAIKIKI this whole weekend :DDD & yeah...

WHO I'D LIKE TO MEET :
the guy who stared into my eyes, held me tight, & sang this song with me

weekend fun

PICTURES ARE WORTH A THOUSAND WORDS.
hahha cuz im too lazy & i don't feel like bragging & cuz i have school tomorrow & i gotta sleep soon.booo you suck =P

AND...
"Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment" - buddha

k goodnight <3

NIGHT OUT !

was FIRST a girls night out
w/ charmaine,jennivic,krisha,& justine!
it was fun.we went to wards & watched "17 again"
then we went to the cockaroach jacks & ate there.
so scary & dirty.lols
after we just went & chilled in front of joshs house.
then we packed in francis' car & got dropped off at my grandmas house
thanks krisha i almost fell out.lols ;P hahaha


















& me & krisha went back to kopke cuz she had to talk to derin.
then i was waiting in the car, but sherwin & rhea told me to come out.
so i chilled with them & talked stories & had laughs with rhea,girly,tin,& sherwin.
then they wanted to go to velvets.so we followed along & darryl hopped in with us cuz
he didn't wanna sit in the crowded car.
then we all had moment of truth.haha.
got to velvets & chilled & watched them all play pool.
went outside & watched derin cuz he was hella buzzin.lols
puling the dumpster & marcus driving the cart.
blocking the car & blocking the exits & entrance
kaka'ako fckn climbing the sign like spider man & acting wild.lols
WHAT A NIGHT.IT WAS FUN.
got home 4 in the morning.made NEW FRIENDS.hahah
& krisha slept over for the first time :DDD

;(

YESTERDAY.
i seen it
with my OWN two eyes.
i felt it
the pain lurking inside me
WTF?
i thought i said i'd be okay
but NO
mhmmm
call my a hypocrite
but it ain't easy gettin' over your FIRST LOVE
3 years whatta' waste.
atleast i HAD you
i had enough already
i had enough seeing you FOOL me
talk to you one day, the next day with someone else
DAMN! how do you think that feels?
but now it's time to leave...for good
i've lost & i've learned.
but i didn't lose myself
i'm still standing !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
GOODBYE

fwiiiiday,

still at home
BUT i'm gonna get ready soon!
girls night out tonight w/ maine,krisha,& hopefully jen :DDD
YES! hahahah finally we're gonna all go out.can't wait.
gonna watch "17 again"



c'yyaaaaaaaa ;P


BTW, it takes 2 to Lie.
1 to lie and 1 to listen

"LETTING GO DOESNT ALWAYS MEAN YOU'RE TOO WEAK TO HOLD ON. SOMETIMES IT MEANS YOU'RE STRONG ENOUGH TO LET GO."











"I think part of the reason why we hold on to something so tight, for so long, is because we fear something so great will never happen again."

HE>i

"A woman's heart should be so close to God that a man must seek God to find her"

can

i do this?
can i really?
am i STRONG enough?
wtf?i thought i told myself over and over
i thought everyone kept repeating it to me
it's OVER it's OVER IT'S DONE !!!!!!
JUST GET THE FCK OUT & MOVE ON
like its that easy?
mhm gotta get my mind off this
going to windward mall didn't help
it just brought back memories -___-
hawwww what fckn ever

mhmm k
gonna eat dinner
then get offline to color my hair again
i want it super black again.with no brown.
alright then

i have a feeling...

that i finally REALIZED
that i finally LEARNED
that i finally KNOW that i'm gonna be okay...for sure w/ no doubts about it
that i'm gonna MOVE ON & actually be able to say it & prove it !
i might reminisce a little about the past, but there's no more turning back
maybe...just MAYBE this is gonna be the beginning of something NEW.
something FRESH [;

goodbye PAST...i've had enough dwelling with you!!!
packin' up and leaving that 'moment' in time, cuz you WERE tha fckn best
the past was a blast...but it couldn't even last

HELLO "NEW BEGiNNiNG" :DDD

stickin' with what i already got in the present, but awaitin' for what my FUTURE will bring <3





-peace

♥

"love is everything it's cracked up to be. thats why people are so cynical about it. it really is worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for. and the trouble is, if you don't risk anything, you risk even more."

- erica jong

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"Your heart is strong than your head.If you give up, your thoughts are what's taking over you.If u keep trying, its your heart that fights to win.Showing me you can wait and never give up on us is telling me that it's not your mind i'm always on...it's your heart that i'll always be in" - AMJG

i wish that i could photoshop out, all our bad memories cuz the flashbacks won't leave me alone



- ain't so picture perfect...when will the picture clear up again?

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SPRING BREAK...
is good so far.
running lots of errands.
prolly gonna go to school sometime this week to pick up my books
& tomorrow gotta go change the thingy for my lip ring & meet up with rachel
to grab the invitation for her party:DDD
mhm if it's still early gonna go wards.gonna be boring thats why
& yeah it's boring right now
soooo byyyyyyeeeeeeeeeeeeee

& yeah if you were looking for the other 2 blogs of me & him
sowwwyyy i deleted them for a reason.

...

spring break

so far is going okay...
mhm! went to church for holy thursday & good friday.
it felt good...it's been awhile thats why ^___^
cuz you know why? "we need jesus" in our lives
and you best believe in him


ANYWAYS,
went to genki sushi with ash.seen tess so as ALWAYS she gave me discount.hah.we both actually passed math & comp.
then me & ash wanted ice cweam.so i put gas, then went to wards and we had dairy queen.cuz their ice cream is sooo thick.lol
walked around & wanted to buy my mom orchid flowers for easter.seen the top i wanted at digs.i think?i might go buy it today.might as well.hah
walked to the theaters & checked what time hannah montana movie was.
so me & ash decided to watch it.awwww it was cute.she looks better on the big screen [; hahahahaa.& i was hella surprised when the movie was done.didnt realize we were sitting behind *THEM.hehe.nawwww it's cool though.i have nothing against them nor do i HATE anyone.jesus ALWAYS "forgives" his enemies.so i did too, & now i have no burdens to carry with me.hah :DDD

boring boring BORING week.grrrr


HAPPY EASTER EVERYONE <3

i miss

my babygirl ella :D
i'm gonna visit her soon.




so cute her HK collection

NVM

hahah i just checked my grades online.
FUCK YESSSSS
i passed all my classes.
fckn A's & B's =]]]].
i just told my mom now.
she's happy
like big brother told me "make mom & dad proud cuz all they want is for you to be successful" =]
im doing this not only for myself & my future but for my parents & my brother <3
love them all.hah

FAMiLY

oriented nowadays!
yuppp cuz i had family from Utah & San Francisco.
ew.i wasn't on spring break though.but monday & tuesday was my last days.
so NOW im spring break.ahhh i HOPE i passed my classes.if not then FUCK YOU stupid teachers.ahahahha ;P anyways my mommy & daddy are back from san francisco.so this past weekends been the BEST ever chillin with all my cousins.mmhmmm.me & my mom are gonna go to church all day tomorrow & pray for my brother.love ya big brother<3 idk what else to say so yeah.HERE look at me & my cousins at anela's 1st birthday luau.that even aint half of us.YES theres more of us.haha

0_0

OMFG!!!
i still can't believe that happened
OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG
and i thought that i told myself....
blahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh :0
once again...i fucked up
but then AGAIN i admit my mistakes & i'm gonna learn from it
making me stronger.hah shit
woah what a night/morning.lmfao >_____<
still...kinda disgusted & disappointed.
grrrrrrrrrrrrr

"i rather do something i love, instead of doing something i don't love" - what happens in vegas

so boring

"When it comes down to it, I let them think what they want.
If they care enough to bother with what I do,
then I'm already better than them."
- Marilyn Monroe


anyways,
here's pics from my birthday weekend.the LAST time i seen everyone.
so late, i know
but im bored.so here